Clara now weighs 3.9 pounds. I had gotten her up to 6.0 (from 5.5 when she was first found).

Cat doesn't eat. When cat does eat, cat sometimes throws up. Cat is pulling out the hair on her front arms (okay, legs, whatever). She takes a bite of food and then she takes a bite of fur. Cutely, her little legs aren't bare, just have little downy fur on them.

Kitty stopped eating again. Last night she started lingering too long in her litter box — kinda like forgetting where she was. I wondered if maybe she was constipated and that is why she wasn't eating? I knew something was up because she wasn't even interested in tuna straight from the can. Sad.

When I got home at lunch she wasn't anywhere to be found, til I looked in the litter box (which is one of the covered ones). There she was, taking a little nap (a litter nap). Sigh.

Called the vet. Kitty's back in for a couple of days.

I don't know what to do.

Last month two different people tried to set me straight: time for kitty to take the extended beauty rest. Really? How can I know when that time comes?? Truly? How can I make that decision?

3.9 pounds. That is little and it's not like she is smaller than a chihuahua or anything. Cat's going Karen Carpenter on me. This is sad.

So, we've signed up for another round of urine and blood work. Wait and see what the vet says. Very sad. But I guess the question is — how much more can this sweet little puss take? Am I making things worse? Do I just let her go through the pain? What if it lasts forever? What if we are still in this same boat in 18 months?

I guess I feel like this is too much for me. I'm not good with things like this. Or, with editing either (sorry — I think I just need to express, but don't feel like talking).